well, i guess i am finally frustrated enough to actually write something here
sometimes when its late, you just want to vent to someone...
and i guess this world is as good as any... for now...
i just get so frustrated...
and maybe its my toothache...
or just that time of the month...
or maybe because the end is near...
too close... and not fast enough...
but i'm just tired...
tired of being lied to
tired of yelling and not being heard
tired of being disappointed
tired of watching bad choices take their toll
i'm just tired...
man, i love these kids
and that's why it hurts so bad sometimes...
and i'll miss them when they're gone...
but they can break your heart, make you smile, piss you off... all in a matter of moments.
i know i know,
its all part of being a parent...
and maybe that just happens when you give birth...
but man, i don't know...
of course, in the end...
the good outweighs the bad...
the love outweighs the manipulation...
the hugs outweigh the evil glares....
until then though...
i'm just tired
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3 comments:
hey ruthie, the end is in sight though, eh?
those kids are just lucky they had someone like you these past years.
glad to see you wrote something on here.
i hope you keep this up when you move!
jj
Hi ruthie... Good to see you have a few posts here. I'd encourage you to keep posting. I like doing it. It is sort of a journal. Theraputic. I see that this post is theraputic as well.
I didn't know you had a bog you silly girl!!
I guess these days you don't really!
But I'm pretty sure I should print these words up and put them on my wall... my feelings exactly most days!
Love you so much, you amazing wordsmith!
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